i so need to be motivated right now...

so today is sunday...tomorrow is our last day of classes for the semester and i cannot wait. i cannot wait for this semester to be over with, i cannot wait for the summer to get going, i cannot wait for my last semester of undergrad classes to start...i just cannot wait. but before all this can get going exams are standing in my way..all 6 of them. i have a Holocaust paper due tomorrow-i have 1 sentence on it, i have a "performance" at one of the Montessori school on tuesday as part of a final, i have an integrated final on wednesday (then im going to camp to stock canteen :)) then on thursday i have my math and science for teacher's final, then i have my world civ final on monday, then 2 exams and a paper due on tuesday, then the mapp test on thursday...all while packing up, cleaning, getting ready for summer, physical therapy, and so on...so much to do and so little time and at the moment so little motivation.

...yesterday morning i took my first PRAXIS test and that was not a good thing, i took the advice from several people who said that this was the easiest test and there was no need to really study for it and so on...boy was i wrong to listen to them. but what is done is done, and if i absolutely have to i can retake it in the fall along with the other 3 tests i have to take...

today i should be working my butt off getting stuff done but instead i am watching movies and playing on the computer...AHHHHHH!

throw some prayers up for me for the end of the semester as well as everyone else ending the semester. also throw up some prayers for this summer-it's going to physically, mentally, and i hope spiritually draining for me and it would be great for some extra prayers...

my afternoon...

so drew and i spent the afternoon in our hammocks...this is what mine looks like...it was the most amazing few hours and i actually got a whole bunch done. Danielle, you should look into getting one for the summer and jack and jenny, they are amazing!!

*reasons*

so i haven't blogged in a while but recent events have warranted another entry.
so there are only a few weeks of school left and things are getting very hectic and confusing...i have an observation packet, 2 more full out lesson plans, a music notebook, 2 papers for history, a holocaust project, a web quest, a thematic unit and several tests still on my plate for the semester and i just can't wait for it all to be over with.

my facebook status at the moment really expresses how i am feeling right now...earlier today someone told me i should have more tact -my response to that is there should be more respect, more understanding, and more hard work. i never understood the term 'free ride' for college students-there is no such thing as a free ride, there is always going to be work to be done in order to keep up with everything. it really bothers me when people attempt to accept a free ride and do nothing more it really bothers me when people do not do the things entrusted to them it bothers me when people only want to do things that benefit themselves directly it bothers me when people are fake it bothers me when people do things just for attention it bothers me when people cannot act their own age it bothers me when people grovel at others feet it bothers me when people pick and choose who they are going to punish it bothers me when people ignore the way they were raised and act completely different

i know and understand that in order learn you sometimes have to fall and make mistakes but what i dont understand is when you are too blind to see the mistakes and too cocky to accept the help i dont understand how you think the way you do...but then again that's why we are now two completely different people and i have to be ok with that. what i refuse to be ok with is the fact that your actions not only affect your entire life but it also affects me...it affects the people around you and it even affects groups of people-even if you don't believe so it does and that hurts-its frustrating...

you may think that i don't like you or that i even hate you, you might think that i get mad and angry at you-but it's not you, it's your actions, you might believe that i don't care about you any more but it's the opposite i care about you more now than ever before...
you may think all these and more, but the truth is that i still love you, i still will always love you no matter what happens