*reasons*

so i haven't blogged in a while but recent events have warranted another entry.
so there are only a few weeks of school left and things are getting very hectic and confusing...i have an observation packet, 2 more full out lesson plans, a music notebook, 2 papers for history, a holocaust project, a web quest, a thematic unit and several tests still on my plate for the semester and i just can't wait for it all to be over with.

my facebook status at the moment really expresses how i am feeling right now...earlier today someone told me i should have more tact -my response to that is there should be more respect, more understanding, and more hard work. i never understood the term 'free ride' for college students-there is no such thing as a free ride, there is always going to be work to be done in order to keep up with everything. it really bothers me when people attempt to accept a free ride and do nothing more it really bothers me when people do not do the things entrusted to them it bothers me when people only want to do things that benefit themselves directly it bothers me when people are fake it bothers me when people do things just for attention it bothers me when people cannot act their own age it bothers me when people grovel at others feet it bothers me when people pick and choose who they are going to punish it bothers me when people ignore the way they were raised and act completely different

i know and understand that in order learn you sometimes have to fall and make mistakes but what i dont understand is when you are too blind to see the mistakes and too cocky to accept the help i dont understand how you think the way you do...but then again that's why we are now two completely different people and i have to be ok with that. what i refuse to be ok with is the fact that your actions not only affect your entire life but it also affects me...it affects the people around you and it even affects groups of people-even if you don't believe so it does and that hurts-its frustrating...

you may think that i don't like you or that i even hate you, you might think that i get mad and angry at you-but it's not you, it's your actions, you might believe that i don't care about you any more but it's the opposite i care about you more now than ever before...
you may think all these and more, but the truth is that i still love you, i still will always love you no matter what happens